Sunday, November 11, 2007

singer in the train


Aye,the singer in the train ;
The man with the strained throat;
Singing a melancholous note;
Carving a rhythm from the harmonium;
Holding an aluminum bowl for my coins;
Which may or may not come;
But you seldom stop;
You go on singing with the strained throat;
You the singer of the soul;
I would never see you after this journey;
But I would remember you for you gave me the song;
Aye the singer in the train;

One day you would die spewing blood on the tracks;
The train would run over the harmonium;
And you will be gone forever;
They would take you to the morgue;
And when you start decaying they would bury you among many like you;
One day even I would die;
On my soft silky mattress;
With my people crying around me;
They would burn me in ghee;
N post my pic at the corner of the dead in the drawing room;
N oblivion would make me a stranger among them;
I too will be gone forver;

In the deadman’s world;
We would meet again my singer;
N you would still have your song that would soothe the soul;
But I would not have the money of mercy to put in your bowl;
Death would have dispossessed me of my wealth;
But it cant take away the song from you;
For your song is your own;
While I was just a tenant of my wealth;
We would be equals in the deadman’s world;
N your song will be mine too;
The song of the soul….

Saturday, November 10, 2007

on a low..

feeling a low today,
a pressure butchering me,
a feeling grippin me,
am on a low,
am .............

"for her ...who is a widow..."

i dont have flowers to place at your altar my friend,

i dont have songs to sing for you my friend,

i dont have a shoulder to offer you,

i dont have tears to cry with you,

my hand is too sinned to hold you pure my dear,



i dont know how to excorcise the ghosts of your youth,

i dont know how to hide you from the world my dear,

probably i would only watch you with my pretended tears,

i will remember you my friend,

as the lil gal who hid behind her mom fearing the thunder,

as the lil lady who would cry fearing the witch,

how did you live widowhood my dear?????

how did you my dear lil lady take the thrash of death,

from wher did you get all this strength my friend????

did he in his last hug tell you he would not be around 4ever??

did he kiss you saying it was his last???

did he promise he would rejoin you at heaven???

i have only questions to ask,

i dont have any answers to your tears,

i dont have life to give you my dear,

i dont have flowers to offer at your altar,

i give you this clothe of white,

i watch them forbidding you from your youth,

probably i would only watch,

i pretend to pray for you my dear ,

i would pretend for a life time my friend

on oct 10th.....on a sleepless night....

“of her dead n alive”


late in the night…
raining heavily…
the entire village is lost in its slumber…
but she is awake ,…every trickle of water down the window is watching her open eyes flooded with tears…
….
Every passing cloud knows she is washing out her sins with the rain..

Thursday, November 1, 2007

beneath the skin...

with the mighty spliff restin bw ma fingers,
i think back....
am nothin but a loner now...
nothin more nothin less..
a loner

Monday, October 29, 2007

recumbent.........

In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.
Albert Camus

i lay back,i am thrilled by apostasy...
i remember...
am thrilled am forgetting...
i think n am thrilled am not thinkin anymore...
i think of the red days of misforune n hatred...but
i keep hope that it wil turn green,
the drying summer wil giv way to puply spring,
tadpoles wil wriggle in the puddles once more,
there wil be dirt to dance over,
there wil be rain to wash over,
there will be me ,
waiting for him ,
when he comes back after his ride

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

at the coffeee table....

i get up very early in the mornin....then
am sippin ma coffee....
scannin the newspaper....
in fact am in the process of wakin up..
its only aftr i v hd two sipsa coffee n hd a brisk readin of
the page3 columns of the newspaper tat am really awake...
in tis process of waking up,
i plan on what am goin to do durin the day...
the journey of the dy proceeds seldom as planned...
but i relish the plannin....

but today is different...
i wanna sleep more...
the process of waking up is givin me bad thots...
i v already presumed the day is gonna b bad...
memories are rampin up its way on my psyche...
i can c the dyin light approachin me...
i can c the fallen leaves...
i can c the dried out tears..
oh god....am gonna live my past again...
y cant oblivion sweep over these festering wounds???
y are they still there???????
y are my thought process so pregnant with them???????
y more pain??????????